I don’t need you to complete me. I want you to share life with me.
Dear one, I know that you are here, and it makes me very happy.
Had a dream i had aids and so it was decided i would die/have a funeral because i had a terminal illness. was very realistic and right when i saw my coffin i realized i still had time to take control – wanted to be cremated, wanted to stay alive! so i decided to live and have a full life.
—> criticism jealousy and fear
“…I married you for your beauty but you don’t have to be beautiful. I married you of your money in a way, the history of it, piling up over generations, through world wars. This is not something I need but a little history is nice. The family retainers. The vintage cellars. Little intimate wine tastings. Spitting merlot together. This is stupid but nice. The estate-bottled wines. The statuary in the Renaissance garden, beneath the hilltop villa, among the lemon groves. But you don’t have to be rich.”
“But I’m feeling a change. I’m making a change. Did you look at the menu? They have green tea ice cream. This is something you might like. People change. I know what’s important now.”
“For beauty is nothing but the beginning of passionate terror, which we still are just able to endure,
and we are so awed because it serenely disdains to annihilate us.